“The Upper East Side was like something from Fitzgerald or Thackeray, teenagers acting like adults, adults acting like teenagers, guarding secrets, spreading gossip all with the trappings of truly opulent wealth. And membership into this community was so elite you couldn’t even buy your way in. It was a birthright, a birthright that I didn’t have.
do you ever drop something and instead of picking it back up you just stare at on the ground and think about what a failure you are
You know when you’re drowning you don’t actually inhale until right before you black out. It’s called voluntary apnea. It’s like no matter how much you’re freaking out, the instinct to not let any water in is so strong that you won’t open your mouth until you feel like your head’s exploding. Then when you finally do let it in, that’s when it stops hurting. It’s not scary anymore. It’s.. actually kind of peaceful.